"Do you love me..?"
"Why are you asking that..?"
"Why don't you answer me? You didn't love me?"
"I do love you.."
"Now I doubt it.."
Hanis Amanina, and here I am, sharing with you about my ways..
To be frank, I'm not the type whom would express my love easily.. " I love you" is the hardest phrase for me to say to someone that I love.. It's either I would hesitate to answer or I would distract the person to other question before answering it and sometimes I just keep it to myself..
You might think, this only apply to someone special.. Well, here's the fact.. I couldn't express them to my family too..! My siblings called me "kebal", simply because I'm the hardest to deal with and I don't kiss them unless during the eid.. Even during the forgiving session, they would cry loads while saying the words and I would only be saying it, without any single tears.. 😥
It's just recently that I "accidentally" kissed my sister which I thought she was my sister in law ( my SIL is the type whom would kiss me everytime we met so I have no problem to kiss her), and she just let me to kiss her cheeks, but in the end she looked at me blankly.. In fact, my parents and Along whom were there became speechless too..! All I could say "Lah, Kakak ke.. Anis ingat kak Lin!", and everyone laughed at me.. I blushed and ran upstairs, to my room.. 😂
As expressing love was hard for me, How would I let people know that I love them? I prefer to show them by my gesture and spending some time with them.. Well, every act of kindness and everything that you do for a person could be considered as love gesture but somehow, people just don't understand you.. To be honest, you could hardly understand the gestures but, you could feel it as everything that the person do, comforts you and made your day.. 💕
Love is not meant to be seen or say after all, it's meant to be feel.. ❤