" Aku terima nikahnya ..."
and she couldn't hear the rest of the words anymore... Tears started to roll down on her cheeks and her heart was screaming loudly inside.. She felt like bursting out loud but she wouldn't want to ruin the mood.. Why did she feel that way?
It's the final wedding before her and now, as she's the only unmarried child, she felt lost on her own.. She was able to hold herself from losing further and acted like she was fine.. But the feeling won't last forever.. Her heart screamed louder when it was the moment for the family portrait event..
"Okay, grab your partner and get ready for the picture.."
While all of her siblings were busy to get into position of their own partner, she was left alone, sitting at the center position all on her own, pretending to be laughing while her heart and mind were totally losing itself.. Her tears were still there but people thought it was because she laughed too much..
Right after the session was over, she tried hard to heal herself but the crowd made it worst.. She wouldn't bother for any words mentioning that her turn would be next, as clearly, she was the only one left in the family..
"eh, cari la sekarang kat kolej, cari yang sama course, baru senang nak berkenalan..""Nanti la.. Jauh lagi perjalanan.. Diploma pun belum habis..""Carik je.. Buat apa tunggu lama-lama.."
Can't people just leave her alone? She already had a harsh feeling but how could people make it worst?
Drapetomania is all she has now.. Hopefully, she would feel better soon..
Drapetomania; an overwhelming urge to run away..